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Sunday, May 30, 2010

emo spiralling

tbe2 ari ni rase nk menaip lak..

hurmm knp aku rase sgt2 sedih?? it's d only one's of my HOPE & last HOPE.

im hoping 2 be given a chance like others 2 live happily ever after..
as well..
tapi ade kah aku still bpluang??

in fact,aku bkn ssorg yg sgt mulia di sisi Allah.. coz no one does can argue d reality..hnya alim ulamak je yg mulia..

think deep in my thought,
human beings are created 2 share something together, learn from each other, communicate & express their feelings..
haihhhh..ape aku emo2 nie..

Monday, May 24, 2010

play wit ur name


1:I - is really sweet & romantic
2:K - hot
3:H - stick to one
4:W - can be funny and dumb at times
5:A - crazy
6:N - is a very good kisser too!
8:C - selfish
9:E - has gorgeous eyes
10:R - funny
11:I - is really sweet & romantic
12:A - crazy

Sunday, May 16, 2010

here r ma joyful reflection..

Life is all about choices and attitude. Make the right choices, keep a positive attitude-- and you will find JOY through all of your ups and downs. Hope you enjoy my thoughts!

There are so many things in my life which make me happy.
It's hard 2 put them into a single blog post.

BUT TOday,

I wanted 2 talk a little about some of da important things in ma life.
Do you like 2 walk along d beach, feel d sand between your toes, or just sit and listen 2 da waves as they roar??? i like dat very much!!!

Another thing that makes me happy is seeing a gorgeous waterfall.

a simple thought!::
A shock sent through my system,

Down my spine and through my limbs.
My stomach fills up with butterflies,
And any pain I was feeling dims.

A smile that stops my heartbeat.
Your soft lips part to speak.
"Don't panic love,
You'll always have me"
And we're the only two around,
As far as I can see.

This is why my heart beats.
It's your fault I never sleep.
I toss. I turn.
Being away from you brings pain, leaves burns.
Memories fly through my head.
So anxious to see your face again.
A disease only your presence can heal.
Further proof that these feelings are real.

Your laugh, your smile,
Your hands over mine,
Keeping me warm,
My light in this dark storm.
The reason I wake,
Knowing I'll see you today.
Your arms wrap around me,
And I feel safe.

!! dat's Y ma heart BeatS !!

Tuesday, May 11, 2010

caunselor ?? motivator? hah..self-treatment je..

?? motivator? hah..self-treatment je..

the act of talking to oneself : a dramatic monologue that represents a series of unspoken reflections

my self : I am not immune to depression.

This week I felt smothered.But those who I’ve cared about let me know they also cared for me.

That is a great gift, and I’m exceedingly thankful 4 da mutual that is involved in such relationships.

i said to my self: If you lose your way, it’s okay.

Maybe it is a test. To see if you are paying attention to the path.

Maybe I wasn’t paying enough attention, and maybe I was paying too much. Look for that light at the end of the tunnel.

It isn’t always an approaching train.

I am paying better attention now .. bye2

Monday, May 10, 2010

if not sadness, than ape???

I finished watering my garden the other day and went about coiling up the hose. I glanced down and saw a leaf that resembled a fetus or newborn animal. Closer inspection revealed that unfortunately it was a new born bird who'd fallen from its nest. Directly above it was a hole in the side of our house that I'd seen a bird fly into a few days earlier.

I picked up the tiny body, about two inches long, and placed it on a trowel so that I could look at it up close. It looked so peaceful, eyes closed, at rest. I was so sad for this little creature. I was just as sad for those it left behind.
there was not protection from the elements like the crazy wind that's been wreaking havoc on our trees. It was hidden away from predators, as the cats in the neighborhood had no chance of getting near it.

with the blink of an eye,

it was gone.

What did this mother bird do when she realized her baby had fallen out of her carefully thought out nest? Did she made a sound? Was it quiet? Loud? Drawn out? Did she sit next to her tiny baby? When did she finally accept defeat?

I often think about how animals experience emotion, more specifically how they mourn. We're told not to attribute human emotions to animals; that they don't "feel" like we do.

Although anger is different than sadness, it's still an emotion and to make my point I'm throwing it in here. I often observe my own cats in the throws of jealousy as they brood watching one of the others receives pets and attention. They might not be able to think, "I feel jealous", but they're experiencing something and they prove it by smacking the other cat as he saunters by them.

When it comes to loss, perhaps animals are better off not having to experience it exactly like humans do. I certainly wouldn't wish my sadness on them. But the concept that people project their emotions on animals and that they have none of their own? I'm just not on board with that theory.

Tuesday, May 4, 2010

gumbira aty klow dpt bsama

Swing Kids was oddly very meaningful for me at this time

Everyone is looking for a soul mate - someone you really click with, a person who enriches your life while you enrich his or hers.

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