air mata yg berlagu...

My mood has been ridiculous this weekend. I was miserable yesterday morning, then pretty good, then just okay, then miserable, then okay.

Today's been the same but more miserable than anything else really.

You get a thought in your head, it leads on to another one, and then another. Then you actually look for more things to upset you so you have a reason to hurt yourself, to punish yourself for being you, for not being anyone else, whoever it is.

I haven't done anything, my arms have only just healed from last time.
It's just my brain making me hurt.

Want to cry.