as d time goes by..

... I'm so not used to it......
I wish you could ask about me but you didn't
Every time when there is a call or text from 016-********8, I thought it could be you, but yet I know it wasn't from you...
Perhaps, I should speak to you in the first place to avoid embarrassment or to let things cool down but yet I never take the step.
But, is either my fault too!
That's why I have been silent even when you insisted it was my fault!
I don't blame for creating this mess but I never known you will have such big reactions towards this same things.
What should I do so that we could be like as usual as how we used to be?
On the other hand, I know u have been caring for me as usual and scare that I will get upset about this, thus u calling me quite often this few days to make sure I'm ok.
Yes, I'm still fine, that's the only things I could reply to you.
Ah, how good if everything is within our control...
.
Sorry for inconvinence at dis mess moment. Everything just happened within a matter of time which i never ever expect everythin’ gonna happen at one time..

beruang, singa DAn BAbi...

Beruang, Singa dan Babi bertemu di hutan...



Beruang kata: "sekali ja aku mengaum,
seluruh hutan menggigil."

Singa kata: "eleh, sekali ja aku mengaum semua belantara ketakutan."


Babi kata: "Wa La Weh....
sekali ja aku batuk,
satu dunia panik!"

Solat dan Sains : Rahsia Solat Di Awal Waktu

Setiap peralihan waktu solat sebenarnya menunjukkan perubahan tenaga alam ini yang boleh diukur dan dicerap melalui perubahan warna alam. Fenomena perubahan warna alam adalah sesuatu yang tidak asing bagi mereka yang terlibat dalam bidang fotografi.

Sebagai contoh, pada waktu Subuh alam berada dalam spektrum warna biru muda yang bersamaan dengan frekuensi tiroid yang mempengaruhi sistem metabolisma tubuh. Jadi warna biru muda atau waktu Subuh mempunyai rahsia berkaitan dengan penawar/rezeki dan komunikasi. Mereka yang kerap tertinggal waktu Subuhnya ataupun terlewat secara berulang-ulang kali, lama kelamaan akan menghadapi masalah komunikasi dan rezeki. Ini kerana tenaga alam iaitu biru muda tidak dapat diserap oleh tiroid yang mesti berlaku dalam keadaan roh dan jasad bercantum (keserentakan ruang dan masa) - dalam erti kata lain jaga daripada tidur. Disini juga dapat kita cungkil akan rahsia diperintahkan solat diawal waktu. Bermulanya saja azan Subuh, tenaga alam pada waktu itu berada pada tahap optimum. Tenaga inilah yang akan diserap oleh tubuh melalui konsep resonan pada waktu rukuk dan sujud. Jadi mereka yang terlewat Subuhnya sebenar sudah mendapat tenaga yang tidak optimum lagi. Sebab tu
laaa..Allah Subha nahu wataala. seru "Assollah tuqaihiiruuu minan naum". solat itu lebih baik daripada tidur.

Warna alam seterusnya berubah ke warna hijau (isyraq & dhuha) dan kemudian warna kuning menandakan masuknya waktu Zohor. Spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi perut dan hati yang berkaitan dengan sistem penghadaman. Warna kuning ini mempunyai rahsia yang berkaitan dengan keceriaan.. Jadi mereka yang selalu ketinggalan atau terlewat Zuhurnya berulang-ulang kali dalam hidupnya akan menghadapi masalah di perut dan hilang sifat cerianya. Orang yang tengah sakit perut ceria tak ?

Kemudian warna alam akan berubah kepada warna oren, iaitu masuknya waktu Asar di mana spektrum warna pada waktu ini bersamaan dengan frekuensi prostat, uterus, ovari dan testis yang merangkumi sistem reproduktif. Rahsia warna oren ialah kreativiti. Orang yang kerap tertinggal Asar akan hilang daya kreativitinya dan lebih malang lagi kalau di waktu Asar ni jasad dan roh seseorang ini terpisah (tidur la tu ...). Dan jangan lupa, tenaga pada waktu Asar ni amat diperlukan oleh organ-organ reproduktif kita

Menjelang waktu Maghrib, alam berubah ke warna merah dan di waktu ini kita kerap dinasihatkan oleh orang-orang tua agar tidak berada di luar rumah. Ini kerana spektrum warna pada waktu ini menghampiri frekuensi jin dan iblis (infra-red) dan ini bermakna jin dan iblis pada waktu ini amat bertenaga kerana mereka resonan dengan alam. Mereka yang sedang dalam perjalanan juga seelok-eloknya berhenti dahulu pada waktu ini (solat Maghrib dulu la ...) kerana banyak interferens (pembelauan) berlaku pada waktu ini yang boleh mengelirukan mata kita. Waktu inilah fenomena buta ayam terjadi. Rahsia waktu Maghrib atau warna merah ialah keyakinan, pada frekuensi otot, saraf dan tulang.
Apabila masuk waktu Isyak, alam berubah ke warna Indigo dan seterusnya memasuki fasa Kegelapan. Waktu Isyak ini menyimpan rahsia ketenteraman dan kedamaian di mana frekuensinya bersamaan dengan sistem kawalan otak. Mereka yang kerap ketinggalan Isyaknya akan selalu berada dalam kegelisahan. Alam sekarang berada dalam Kegelapan dan sebetulnya, inilah waktu tidur dalam Islam.. Tidur pada waktu ini dipanggil tidur delta dimana keseluruhan sistem tubuh berada dalam kerehatan. Selepas tengah malam, alam mula bersinar kembali dengan warna putih, merah jambu dan seterusnya ungu di mana ianya bersamaan dengan frekuensi kelenjar pineal, pituitari, talamus dan hipotalamus. Tubuh sepatutnya bangkit kembali pada waktu ini dan dalam Islam waktu ini dipanggil Qiamullail.

Begitulah secara ringkas perkaitan waktu solat dengan warna alam. Manusia kini sememangnya telah sedar akan kepentingan tenaga alam ini dan inilah faktor adanya bermacam-macam kaedah meditasi yang dicipta seperti taichi, qi-gong dan sebagainya. Semuanya dicipta untuk menyerap tenaga-tenaga alam ke sistem tubuh. Kita sebagai umat Islam sepatutnya bersyukur kerana telah di'kurniakan' syariat solat oleh Allah s.w.t tanpa perlu kita memikirkan bagaimana hendak menyerap tenaga alam ini. Hakikat ini seharusnya menginsafkan kita bahawa Allah s.w.t mewajibkan solat ke atas hambanya atas sifat pengasih dan penyayang-Nya sebagai pencipta kerana Dia tahu hamba-Nya ini amat-amat memerlukannya.

Adalah amat malang sekali bagi kumpulan manusia yang amat cuai dalam menjaga solatnya tapi amat berdisiplin dalam menghadiri kelas taichinya ..."

jefferson show@ Queensbay Mall

no unity in msia??

I beg to differ. I believe that there is unity in Malaysia but because unity can't be defined within strict parameters, we often can't "see" unity. What is unity? Standing together with one voice over certain issues can be defined as unity. But I think helping out each other in times of trouble is also a form of unity. It is the essence that matters, not the outward appearance. Just because "high level people" (politicians?) keep harping on race and religion, it doesn't mean that the people are not united. We must remember that most politicians use and manipulate sensitive issues to attract attention to themselves. I don't think that stating race and religion causes disunity. People from different races and religions can still be united. But when the difference of race and religion is used to put down one another or to cause favoritism and bias, then unity is broken.

Sultan Of Brunei (King Of Luxury)

3 children are born every second in this world;
10 mobile phones sold on the international level;
auto manufacturers produce a car every 4.5 seconds on average;
and on the level of the human mind = brain cells send 200 directives each second
to perform the various functions of physical and mental health.
The world spends 37 million euros for arms on the international level in one second
And the Sultan of Brunei's wealth increases by 90 euros every second!
No envy please!
This means around 5400 euros per minute, 324000 euros each hour, 7776000 euros a day
Implies about 54432000 euros a week (that's 54 million and 432000 thousand euros)
Brunei's Sultan Hassanal Bolkiah ... President of the richest country in the world
Popular, lavish, ... uses gold in everything
Was born literally eating with spoons made of gold
Clothes worn embroidered with gold and silver

One of the cars of theSultan of Brunei

At the special request of the Sultan of Brunei,
theRolls Royce company
combined their car designs with that of Porsche.
This vehicle is currently in London
for use during his stay in Britain

Wikipediasays he has
531 Mercedes-Benzes
367 Ferraris
362 Bentleys
185 BMWs
177 Jaguars
160 Porsches
130 Rolls-Royces
And 20 Lamborghinis

Bringing the total number of his cars to 1,932

day by day..

.... A wisp of silver strayed diaphanous beneath the moon,suspended in d inky of night.. HE felt himself spinning down, down, down, in a vortex of despair. Was there to be no love 4 him in this cruel world, just bcoz he's useless ????? hurmm..

a lie??kind of hurts..

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who matter don't mind, and those that mind, don't matter."

In this world of vanity, people tend to forget that having real friends is a very very important thing.
You may find going out and shining in limelight extremely cool and it feeds your ego better than anything. But when one by one, the people who loved you for your soul, disappear, you can cry tears that are saltier than any sea. And believe me, when you show no love and only expect it to come to you, then they will disappear.

Some people just use you. They call and say "I'm sooooooooooooooooo bored, let's go out and do something.
And then there are people who call to say: "I'm having sooooooooooo much fun, come and join me!"

Unfortunately, there aren't many people who act like that.
U see..how difficult to find people who really care for you. They can say they care. They can even mean it. But they don't act like it.
And in the end, what they said or meant, becomes a lie.
A lie that kind of hurts. Kind of makes you angry. But most of all, makes you feel used.
Makes you feel like you are...
You may feel like there was a lot of drama around who cares about who.

Still, I have faith in good friendships. I can say, I really have great great great friends. They don't fuck me. They don't shit me. They are normal, good people. Awesome, humble, exciting, funny, smart, wonderful friends.

And I never want to lose the hope, that my friendships means as much to them as it means to me.

And if my soul is nothing to you, then by all means - don't ever bother to give me reasons to care for you. And don't ask for it either.

lagu 'kantoi' ..

Semalam I call you, you tak answer
You kata you keluar - 'Pergi bank yea'
You kata you keluar dengan kawan you
But when I call Tommy, he said it wasn't you
So I drove my car pergi Damansara
Tommy kata maybe you tengok bola
Tapi bila I sampai you - you tak ada
Lagilah I jadi gila

So I call and call sampai you answer
You kata 'Sorry sayang, tadi tak dengar'
'My phone was on silent - I was at the gym'
Tapi latar belakang suara perempuan lain
[ Zee Avi Lyrics are found on www.songlyrics.com ]

Sudahlah sayang I don't believe you
For since long that your words were never true
Why am I with u - I pun tak tahu
No wonderlah my friends pun tak suka you

So I guess that's the end of our story
Akhir kata, she accepted his apology
Tapi last last kita dapat tahu she was cheating too
With her ex-boyfriend's best friend - Tommy

(Kantoi)

happy belated birthday 2 Datin ...

sempat lagi ni curi2 shoot kat CS.. comel x???

penang airport dow! ha3

Hahaha…
Teringat plk pglaman aku gdoh dgn cina bodoh tu kat ats flight time aku depart from penang airport to KL time nk balik cuti..

nk di jdi kan cerita org yg aku gado tu time aku nek flight from alor star ari tu aku tjmpa plk dgn cina 2 tpi die nek firefly.

Aku tgh check-in utk air asia da nk depart ni. Last minute da,.
Tibe2 aku tlanggar cina tu.. haha,. Die staring kat aku mcm nk mkn aku..

Hah3 lawak jgk. Time 2 terus aku teringat ayat2 die ats flight yg die kutuk pak cik tua tu sb x switch off handphone time da smpai airport kL ni..
Ape die ingt aku cina jgk kot.. best2 je die kutuk pak cik tu..kesian pak cik

tu..die da tua.
Mybe da lupe agaknyer
Yg die 2 tgh berasmara dana tepi aku dr depart kat penang lagi..naik geli tengkak
aku..

So. Lupekan lah cite kat airport penang tu.
Skg aku tgh tfikir cina tu..time jmp kali ke-2 kat airport alor star..aku bt blagak2 la,

Ape die ingt malay ni bodoh ke… haha.. smpai kat KL duk2 kat airport aku gado dgn ank org putih
Aku berebut kerusi..haha. nsb bapak die yg tgn besar tu x sepak aku kalau x da mati aku kat situ..

Kata dak law an?so aku tipu2 ar dak tu.pdhal aku nk duduk kat sit tu..
At last, aku dpt jgk duduk..haha
Amik risiko gado dgn ank org putih. Agak nyer sekali bapak die sepak aku mmg terus masuk ward kn..

Tp ade lg cite best aku kena provoke dgn security gak kat airport penang gk..mg sakit aty aku., tau la aku slh masok.
Die gelak2 mmg giler tul..so aku rs aku da kuar kn statement yg x ptut kat security guard tu.. sori la “pak cik” (guard)
Even pak cik x tau yg sy da mnyesal tengking pak cik tp sori la.. sy da malu time pak cik gelak2 tu da la seluar aku terlondeh & tcabut kasut lg
So.. pak cik mybabkn sy btindak kasar..Sori ‘security guar’ next time x bt lgi..suke nek flight kat penang airport compared to alor star airport.hehe
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so much i need to say...

SO much i need to say.
anyhow , the most favorite thing in my world now: sleep. so i would glue my self on my bed..

dimanakah yg itu??..

Patience is one of the best medicines in life. Kdg2 terlalu bsbr dgn mslh yg kite hdpi leh mbutakan mata hati kite utk mmaafkn kmbali. Kdg2 kite selalu berkorbn utk org2 disekililing kite tnp mreka sedari. Tpi kdg2 bgus jgk sbb kite dpt menilai sjauh mane interaction antr kite dgn org2 sekilling kite. Ksbrn sukar dicari dlm hdp yg pnuh dgn up & down ni. X sume org perfect. Kdg2 org yg kite sayangi for example our sibling pn leh bt kite tcbr dgn kelakuan mreka,ape tah lg dgn manusia sjagat..
Kdg2 kite bsbr utk kbaikan kite sume bsma drp tjdi pkra2 yg di luar jgkaan. Mgkin org mgatakan aku seorg yg tlalu baik. Or good listener or aku pnh tdgr org bckp ‘pak turut’ mgkin aku tsilap dgr tapi ape yg ku hdpi ialah ape yg aku hdpi. Haha. Hidup tnp cbrn adalah useless. Tnp cbrn kite xdpt mgetahui hikmah ape yg akn tjdi..
Diri ku sentiasa mghrp kn pe yg tjdi akn ade hikmh dsebaliknye. Mgkin insan yg sentiasa bsbr n tawakal akn sentiasa dpt mgetahui hikmh sbalik sume yg tjdi. Tpi kte sume manusia yg kdg2 agak lalai dlm mjalani khidupn yg agk competitive skg.
Life expectancy kite mgkin cpt or mgkin lambat tiada siapa yg tahu..
Persoalan yg aku sgt menyesali skg adelah.sempat kah aku bertemu dgn malam lailatul Qodar. Aku berazam utk bertemu dgn mlm lailatul qodar tp mgkin mlm tsebut tlh blalu mgkin ckp2 org2 tua pd tahun ni. Sempatkah aku bertemu nyer lailatul qodar tahun hdpn?sempatkn aku mgejar cita2 ku?smpatkah aku mbhagiakn family ku?smpatkah aku mbina keluarga aku sndri bsama ank2 ku?mgkin Alfred tau jwpnnyer nape aku ckp cmni.haha Alfred ko jgn nk kacau doctor2 kat ... KL tu nti aku tarik ko pergi bilik mayat ok?haa. Dr. Azlan is the best!ko jgn mgarut mcm2 kat die.kalau x siap la ko!.hahaha mmg kite bkongsi doctor yg sama.tp kalau ko ngada2 tau lah ko yer?!hahah
Jwpn nyer mgkin pnuh dgn misteri hanya ALLAH S. W.T je yg tahu..’
Off now.

emo?? stop it!!

In some corner of my heart I'm so sick and tired of being used and buttered-up for selfish intentions that I want to lock myself away from their society forever . Hurm, what is so-called friendship and friend? What are d differences between these two? Friendship is some kind of attached relationship that we really closed & have mutual liking of interest to one another. Otherwise, friend is an ordinary relationship that merely on particular reason. Ok! how do we feel when some1 that we totally put trust on them & give us full of vain hope with such ridiculous things .hUrm, it been a worth while ur in gd mood but such a loser when being used 4 particular matters. The likelihood to deception is higher compared to honesty, perhaps. Well, human is human, devil is devil, bullshit is bullshit & asshole is asshole. A friend dat we r hoping 2 be last longer has changed drastically due to wealth & found someone who make one’s on top of world w/o hesitating others feeling.

Once it hurts, there will be history created in our corner of heart, so long we try to abolish that sort of feeling but it never end 4 ever. Out of blue , that fella emerge desperately looking 4 some1 coz of frustration or else. Perhaps, that fella r craving 4 sympathy, either. As that fella solely a child with no sibling is blaming on their parents that do not take into account for that fella coz of hectic schedule. So ,try 2 commit something that really offend morality as a muslim even though all ur cousin are non-muslim. Ok. I would accept that mybe u r d only one who practice islam but the way u act likely to show that u r nOT!. Fucking that heart holes.! I wish d devil would drag u into hell. Stop pretending ur doing part time modeling lah. Useless la. I recommended that fella 2 one of modeling agency in KL through my friend haha tapi skrg that fella dat blagak cm die sorg je PERFECT !.haha. Moving to Amsterdam bgs la dr idup kat Msia ni. Burden org je .haha 4 this time I won’t help u out from ur miserable life beb!.haha. u deserve starting on d day u went away.haha
Moral of d story. PLz do not be humble on earth & no self-pity .be a selfish to some extent not to hurt others feeling through matured deed, behavior & age doesn’t indicate how mature u r ok? Behave in proper behavior ¬ 2 hurt others feeling too coz one day person that look cool might burst out & taking action beyond what we think of.
Whatever it is there must be lie in the beauty .watch out in looking friend from walks of life. There is jungle out there that we couldn’t see d true color of them.

life has it ups and downs...

this's d part im having less, there will be part i have more.. insyallah


this's d part im having less, there will be part i have more.. insyallah

bile ku termenung..

PL2C class gathering.

bukak pose same2 kat HOtmas restoran bhampiran Swiss Inn Hotel @ sUngai Petani..

CURRENT !! if i were to change......... might change later

If i were to change, there will be no more delight in becoming my friend. I’ll go in reverse of what i did b4. I realized that i do mistake repeatedly to u guys. Sometimes i would never know what was my mistake at all. Everyone is just like blaming me on something that bring a big impact on their life. I tired of dealing with emotional that lead me to depression,either.

National Day ??hurmm

“There were certain things that I wanted to change by the end of August. I don't remember those things actually but I'm in a bit of hurry to achieve those things.” This was from my previous post..huhu.but on my way to achieve smthing. ni ade bnd cross out in my mind..

Why do I hate myself?

Do you catch yourself thinking, "I hate myself"? We hate ourselves for various reasons. Sometimes it is because we say the wrong things at the wrong time. Sometimes we hate ourselves for not living up to our own or another's expectations. The fact is that sooner or later most of us in our lifetime are going to utter the word's "I hate myself." The words "I hate myself" by themselves hold no power over us, but the problem starts when you begin to believe the words. Let's look at some of the reasons why you may come to hate yourself and how to deal with the problems.

• Rejection - We all must face rejection in our lives. Rejection from members of the opposite sex, rejection over a promotion at work, rejection at a life that does not measure up to the big plans we once had. Rejection will come, but we must not let it consume us. I have learned in the past that when rejection comes, it is not the end of the world. Sure, there are times I am depressed for a little while and there is a lot of self-examination, but over time I learned that rejection is not the end, but the beginning of something else.
• Love and Acceptance - It is human nature to want to feel the love and acceptance of others, but when it doesn't happen in our timetable, we often turn to ourselves as the source of our failure. When someone does not accept or show love to you, don't hate yourself for it. Rather, take time to consider the situation surrounding why you were not accepted or loved. In the end, you will realize (like I did) that not everyone is going to accept you and love you. If you stay true to who you are, sooner or later you will find the love and acceptance you are looking for.
• I Make Mistakes - We all make mistakes. I know, I make my share of mistakes everyday. I have found that people are more prone to point out your mistakes than they are to praise you for what you are doing right. If you are not careful, you may start to think that your life is a mistake, which can lead to feelings of hatred towards yourself and others.
  
  I know my strengths and weakness and I am going to make more mistakes, but I can't let the mistakes get to me. I know it sounds simple and it will take work, but when you make a mistake, learn from it and move on.

Why do I hate myself? - There could be any number of reasons. The reasons I listed above are ones I have personally dealt with in the past. There were times I hated who I was and wanted to change myself so I could be like everyone else.

Then one day I realized that I am not like everyone else. I am me, so I set out to be me and I soon found that I no longer hated myself. I did not take the things that happened to me so personally anymore.

- the day u went awayyyyyy --

p/s : i fall in love with this song. plus, a person who ........ this song..hehe

THE DAY YOU WENT AWAY

Well I wonder could it be
When I was dreaming about you baby
You were dreaming of me
Call me crazy, call me blind
To still be suffering is stupid after all of this time

Did I lose my love to someone better
And does she love you like I do
I do, you know I really really do

Well hey
So much I need to say
Been lonely since the day
The day you went away
So sad but true
For me there’s only you
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

I remember date and time
September twenty second
Sunday twenty five after nine
In the doorway with your case
No longer shouting at each other
There were tears on our faces

And we were letting go of something special
Something well never have again
I know, I guess I really really know

The day you went away
The day you went away

Why do we never know what we have got till it’s gone
How could I carry on
The day you went away
Cause I have been missing you so much I have to say
Been crying since the day
The day you went away

The day you went away
The day you went away

...when the bond is attached, keep it as long as u love them so much....

thanks for the song ,nyway..